Thoughts on Motherhood

I have daydreamed, dreamed, yearned, pined, wanted, desired, prayed and hoped for a baby my whole life and now my wish is finally here. Where do I begin in describing what it is like to have a lifelong dream come to fruition? The most notable remark I can make is that although my many years of nannying have helped me to be better prepared for motherhood they are not one in the same. It is not just the fact that as a nanny there was a clock-out time but many other differing aspects as well. I was unprepared for how absolutely exhausted I would be. If I thought tackling laundry was difficult now it has become an almost insurmountable task. I have resolved to allow myself to slack on the chores this month because otherwise sleep would definitely elude me. Attempting to figure out how to even do something simple as run a few errands when there is a baby who needs to eat every two hours, poops every five minutes and will have bouts of crying is going to be my next big challenge. For now I have been hanging around the house mostly just trying to adjust. I am very thankful for a husband who is my teammate in raising our son and not just the breadwinner. From what I have gathered from friends and family there are many women who find themselves being the sole caretaker.I feel blessed. And now, here is this sweet little guy who can sometimes only be comforted by the sound of mommy's heartbeat, smell, voice, and touch. It's wonderful and completely exhausting...(on a side note, I have often been told that we forget the pain of childbirth. During that first week I definitely could remember the pain and torment I went through for 27 hours. Having anymore children seemed a frightening thought. But now...I have kind of forgotten what the pain was like and want more kids. I think it is God's way of ensuring that we populate the earth and don't just stop after having one child).