It's Not Easy Being A Little Guy!

While Sam was eating his breakfast this morning he fell asleep! Of course, I took a few pictures. : ) I was actually a little excited that he did because it meant I could put him in his crib & actually take a shower without a problem.

Earlier this week he finally tried pasta with tomato sauce & he made a big ol mess (of course). He is so much easier to feed now that he almost eats the same foods we do. I try to feed him healthy foods & it helps me to eat better too.

We also put in his new car seat & thought he would finally stop whining when we're in the car but no such luck. He hates being confined I guess. We sometimes think about taking road rips but it just doesn't seem possible because unless he falls asleep all he does is whine & cry. I've even tried giving him toys & though that may give him a minute of entertainment he soon returns to crying. I tell you what, I cannot wait until he's old enough to reason with.

The other day it was such a hard day with him & I eventually broke down into tears. He's going through this stage of wanting to be with me or Travis (both, preferably) every second or otherwise he cries. He even will throw himself on the ground. I thought tantrums don't start until age 2! So, the other day Travis was at work & Samuel was just fussy all day & wanted to be with me every second & I was trying to get household stuff done. He wouldn't take a nap; he was having a rough day. Usually I have a lot of patience but I was so tired from not getting enough sleep that I finally just broke down & pleaded with him (I felt so silly that I was pleading with a 10 1/2 month old). I'm hoping today will be a better day.

Just Thinking...

Ever had days when you just don't feel real motivated? That's been my last couple days. Not motivated to clean. Not motivated to exercise. And definitely not motivated to eat healthy. I did do stuff but I feel like I have not been very productive. I keep thinking, "tomorrow will be a more productive day!" That's always my mantra it seems ("Tomorrow my diet begins!" "Tomorrow I will get this house clean & organized!" "Tomorrow I will..."). And then I think that if I only could get Sam to sleep every night by 8:30pm & then be in bed by 10pm & then wake up at 5am (so that I can get a lot done before Sam wakes up) then, and only then, will I be able to accomplish everything. What's that saying "The heart is willing but the flesh is weak"? Uhhhhh...I think that is what it is. I wish I had enough self-discipline to get up early & to keep an immaculate home. But then I guess I'm wishing I would be someone else cuz that just ain't me. I don't see the point of making the bed & I was always the "messy" roommate during my college years. Thank the Lord my husband isn't a clean freak or else he'd have a headache all the time. But I make a mean chocolate chip cookie so I guess that makes up for my other weaknesses.

It's funny, back in day, before I was married I use to make pretend schedules of what I would do with every moment of the day once I became a wife & mother. I designated specific cleaning tasks for certain days, made up pretend children (names & ages included) & their pretend activities. I really thought that that is what I would do once I was married with child(ren). So, while my professors would pontificate about "this or that" I would be making schedules for my future "married with children" life. I thought I was the only weirdo who did such things but I am happy to announce that my good friend, and fellow weirdo, Sara Mallon also use to make similar schedules. I'm not completely abnormal --yay!! Anyways, so I came across one such schedule in my laptop.

So, just for the heck of it, here it is:

Imaginary Children:
Christian -- 5
Cameron -- 4
Gracie Jean -- 2

Monday:
5:30am Awake, shower, Bible time
6:00 Prep for breakfast, make lunches, basic cleaning
6:30 Wake husband & kids; Breakfast; clean up
7:00 Get kids dressed & get myself dressed
7:30 Leave to drop Christian off at school
8:30 Home + time with Cameron & Gracie
9:00 Laundry + Prepare grocery list
10:00 Grocery Store
11:00 Home + put groceries away + prep for lunch
11:30 Leave to pick up Christian
12:30 Lunch with kids
1:00 Clean up
1:30 Time with kids
5:00 Prepare dinner
6:00 Dinner
6:30 Clean up
7:00 Family Time
7:30 Baths
8:00 Get ready for bed + stories
8:30 Time with husband
10:30 Sleep

So, I guess that is how I imagined life would be & though I am not in those exact circumstances (i.e. I only have one child who is still an infant & does not go to school) it does seem pretty accurate. Well, except for the whole getting up at 5:30am part. Oh, and for the record, Travis has poo-pooed the names Christian & Cameron so those will probably not be showing up in the future. However, Gracie Jean will hopefully come to fruition but in the form of Emma Jean & then Gracie (still haven't solidified a middle name). This is of course if Travis relents & doesn't have a vasectomy after our first daughter (he's petrified of having a daughter!). I suspect she will have him wrapped around her little finger. Girls aren't so bad!

My Hubby, The Nut!

We have been experiencing an ant problem, lately. I swear our house was built on an ant hill because we can never seem to fully get rid of them & the second a crumb is left out or if it is about to rain, here they come, marching two by two! My husband decided to make a special poisonous formula for them (isn't he sweet to be thinking so altruistically for our precious little friends?) & when I went out to the kitchen this morning I laughed when I saw the message he left for them. Who doesn't love free food?!

Don't turn your back!

Sammy has recently figured out how to open cupboards! Uh-oh! I turn my back for one second & he decided it was a good idea to investigate the contents of a cupboard. Unraveling paper towels can be fun!

Our friend Serene, turns 3!

One of my best friends, Meghan has a daughter, Serene. On Saturday, we went to Serene's 3rd birthday in Napa, CA. We finally had an opportunity to get a picture of us with our children. She also has a newborn son, about 7 weeks old now, Matthias James.

Meghan and I have been best friends since the 3rd grade & it's crazy sometimes to think of us as little girls & now here we are, "adults" with children of our own. And might I add, how much does Sammy look like his daddy! He is the spittin' image.

Friday

On Friday, I went to my neice's (she's actually my second cousin but she's always been my neice at heart) softball game. It was brutally hot! Regardless, I had fun hanging out with my aunt & cousins. Sammy had fun with his cousin Bradley (I guess they'd actually be 3rd cousins??)! It was fun to watch them play together because it was like watching two boys "rough & tumble" together instead of an infant & a kid. My boy is growing up!

Mothers, do you agree?

I feel like my brain, specifically my memory, have all gone to a faraway place since I became a mother. My husband will often tell me something, ask me about it later, and I won't know what he's talking about (this is according to him that he actually told me whatever it was because I truly don't remember it). He thinks it is because I don't listen. Maybe that's the case. Or, maybe all the sleep deprivation a mother deals with negatively affects memory. Or possibly when I delivered Samuel, some of my brain cells were expelled as well.

Or, maybe I I just have selective hearing...